Thursday, September 28, 2006

Journalier vivant

All of us live for ourselves.Many people live a life of purpose.Some live for the morning sun, the tingling breeze and all the belongings of nature. Others for their parents or children.Some for science, others for spirituality.But in Bangalore we live for work.Well we need a balance of all to complete the meaning of life.Its a circle which nevers ends and should not stop.

Lately I have been also absorbed into adulthood thats why I think so much.My heart still belongs to the day I entered school, small and insecure.Wanting to hold a hand next to mine.This time the school's a little different.It's a school called life.I have many evident signs to prove my entry into adulthood. Not just my hair turning grey or buying a flat near my office.Or talking to my friend over choosing her child's school or turning to read more of Robin S Sharma.I am beginning to sacrifice.Beginning to forgive.Learning to listen more. Have I caught the adulthood bug? Not that I miss my Saturday parties in "The Beach" or that I have stopped enjoying hanging around in malls, but deep within my adrenaline has turned a little more responsible. I have stopped missing my school and college and and I count my calender not by months or dates but from Monday to Friday or formals to casuals. I have stopped watching cartoons lest to prevent my child from being addicted to the TV. It's a long time that I played a prank on anyone.We have taken a responsibilty that lo that time flies.I am trying to find the meaning of life.I crack atleast 2500 lines of code in 10 days but I didnt figure out that the grasshopper walks backwards. I make a monthly deposit to pay my home loan punctiliously. There are days when I wear my Tshirt inside out and my spouse reminds me. I smile everyday as it adds to my value but its been months I have laughed loudly making a lot of noise. Have we forgotten the gift. Dont we linger for a Sunday now.There were times when everyday was a holiday.But now we are ready to forget all the holidays at the end of the month when we get our paycheck. We are also in the vicious circle.

Turning to what we are right now, can we add more value into it? Can we still be strong and stubborn just like when we were teenagers? Can we pursue all the wild ideas that we had in school or college? I know your boss is calling you, but take a moment and figure out if you have also forgotten to live for something.